Selfish...

I am feeling terribly selfish these days. His girl has a little um...mine are big you know. I have been out of the feeding - bed time loop for a little bit and while i am enjoying it it can be exhausting at times. I love the kid though - if i am having a bad day all i need is a smile and a cuddle and all is right with the world. But selfish still - last night my window of opportunity slammed shut on getting her cunt on my face. The kid wouldn't sleep and all i wanted was a little slut on my tongue.
Selfish i know, but considering that He holds the reins on my fun times and i had the green light i hate to lose the chance....

:(

Hopefully tomorrow night He will be as generous and the kid will go to bed...

Giant things are happening here with the family integration - my kids are bonding to her and it feels awesome!

Lets see...

His girl got a big promotion... it comes with a title that positively soaks my pussy.... funny how she has such a position of authority yet bends to me. Little me...

Last night before her first day with her new job title He and i were at her house and i was used well. Today the memory kept me soaked all day.

He spent the night so He could send her on her way for her first day which i find incredibly sweet.

Upswing

Things are looking good these days. I am suitably bruised which just makes everyday brighter. He seems to be getting a bit more use out of me these days which makes me happy. I've been beaten a couple of days running and ass fucked and randomly given orders that make me gushy. Funny how even the simplest things can get you going when you recognize the implications behind them.

We spent most of the weekend with His girl and the um - and even took in a game with our kids this afternoon and i have to say i really enjoy how the families are becoming more integrated. We have even spent some time with her siblings recently and it is becoming just a bit more normal everyday.

Her medical things are being dealt with fairly routinely now - and even though there is a lot to be done there is definite progress being made. Her blood pressure is being regulated and she is on a new medication that has taken care of her headaches and has her sleeping but the big thing is that she is actually doing what she is supposed to do. It took a little evilness on my part but im getting the job done and that is all that really matters in the long run.

She also got some good news at work - and the summer is around the corner for me - and he has been busier lately - so all in all we are all doing pretty damned good.

Unfortunately the weekend fun was cut a little short due to some belly issues but He did split her open and have me clean her up before our fun was cut short. I love when He has me clean them both up after they fuck. There really is nothing hotter in my world then licking His cum out of her cunt. She is so ridiculously responsive and He really tears her up.

As we lay down for a nap this afternoon she told me that she misses my belt. For sure a problem i am more than eager to address. :)

A little bit of a boring update

i don't really know where to go with this update today... truth be told there really isn't much to say. It seems that the deeper we get into this relationship with His girl the more our dynamic changes. Lately it seems that he has become increasingly interested in controlling my service but less and less interested in causing me pain.

Now of course i recognize that i am not supposed to complain - His desire is all i wish and all that...but truth be told i am really missing the pain. I love that He has become more concerned with my service though... oddly i am turned on by the frustration involved in having my requirement for permission to masturbate reinstated and being called in from the other room to plug in the computer when He is sitting next to the outlet. :)

The only thing that is causing a bit of frustration is the fact that when His girl and i get together we need to get permission at the time that we decide we would like to have some fun. i am not supposed to ask ahead of time so very often we get ourselves wound up and then i have to text and wait for a response... and with the um around sometimes we just don't have all that much time. Over the weekend i was at her house and during nap time we were fooling around some. I had gotten permission to suck her cunt and was really enjoying myself - but He had been unclear about whether she was allowed to reciprocate. By the time He stopped with the jokes and gave permission He had gotten ticked off and she had just lost the mood. It just sucks when it goes like that... but i had the fun of a toppy moment when she said she wasn't in the mood anymore and i told her that i really didn't care if she was in the mood _ she better get to work!

Ironically i am not required to ask permission for discipline - if i was i don't think it would ever work. she has been moderately responsive to discipline and in some ways has begun to respond to changes in tone and inflection which i really prefer in the long run. i do not enjoy discipline but i love beating her - and would much prefer beating her for our mutual amusement as opposed to beating her into compliance. But you know the deal...to a certain extent what ever it takes is what it is going to be.

Easter

Happy Easter everyone.... I hope yours was great! My Easter was pretty quiet - we are still hanging on to most of our traditions in the house. My boys were raised with some very structured traditions centered around the holidays and it means so much to me that even though they are almost grown the family stuff is still important enough to them for them to want to maintain the traditions of their childhood.

His girl did not spend the holiday with us - which was sad and understandable all at the same time. She feels that it would be strange for my sons to have her with us for a holiday but frankly they are less concerned with her position in our lives and more concerned with her hang out potential anyway. She is genuinely likable and relates really well seemingly with any age group so she is just fun to be around.

She took her um out to a place not to far from me to spend the morning and had a great time. On the way back in she passed by my house so He and I could see the kid and give her a smooch. It was great to see her but I would have loved to spend the day with her.

Next year she says she is going to mix our traditions a little. I love the idea of combining our families to create new traditions and the idea that she can see herself becoming comfortable enough with us to begin spending the holidays with us. Right now they seem like a sticking point for her and i must say that it is a little bit of an issue for me to think that it is okay for us to be a family on any day OTHER than the holidays.

3 AM

So. It is three in the morning and my boys just left my room. They came home following me in tonight at around 12:30. I had been having dinner with a friend - they were gallivanting as only those of college age can do during their spring break. Sober and good and clean as always. I had just changed into my jammies and taken a giant triple shot cappuccino to my bed.

My plan for this evening was to stay up and prepare all my lesson plans for the coming unit so that I would not have to deal with any of it during the remainder of the break. He is sleeping at her house tonight and all accounts coming in by text indicate they are having a fantastic time.

However it was not to be. My boys came in excited and chatty and we spent the last few hours talking and laughing and watching random Disney clips. They chose the polish for my nails and we discussed things from the deep to the mundane.

Earlier tonight my friend asked me how I had addressed the inclusion of her in my family life with my boys and I must admit that it was considerably easier with the younger than the elder. Simply put I told the younger I love her and that his Father does too and that he should respect that. The elder I waited on and when he became concerned I merely told him that she was a very important part of our life. He asked if me and his Father had a problem and I told him that there was no need for concern. That is all he really wants to know.

Tonight it was nice and poignant and settling and sweet to hear them both discussing her and her um as if they were expected members of the family. No reservations.

I am consumed by the power of the relationships in my life.

One bomb. The girl who has made sport of breaking my son's heart since freshman year of high school is back in the picture. I hate to see him go through this again.

Exploring the switch side…

Seriously though I am in love – really LOVE!

Way back in December His girl and I started spending little chunks of time together. It started with us going Christmas shopping and has moved on to spending the night with her on occasion and sometimes just stopping by for a few hours on my way home from work to do the domestic thing. Last night I spent the night and now I am sitting for her um while she works. He will be joining me soon so that we can both spend the night with her tonight.

Seriously – the sex is outstanding. She has fisted me twice – He and I went vibrator shopping for her – He loves watching us suck His cum out of each others cunts… Amazing.

Not to say there have not been a few missteps along the way. He had some difficulties with my enthusiasm initially. I think He fully expected us to get along but I think He was shocked by the depth of feelings we would experience so quickly. Keeping in mind that we have been married over 20 years and He has been friends with her for over 10 – I do not think He expected us to connect and fall in love almost immediately. Really we had only had passing knowledge of each other – the occasional run in at a party or an event before this. She incidentally met Him initially through my sister, who worked with her eons ago.

As difficult as it is though – I think He is adjusting to having two willing sluts eager to serve Him at His whim…

So, why the title?

Well towards the beginning we became aware of some behaviors that really needed modification. She has atrocious self care habits. She eats crap, doesn’t drink water or exercise and has borderline blood pressure. She gets winded walking up stairs. Simply not acceptable. Of course He thinks that the perfect response is for me to organize rules and administer punishment as He chooses. Uh…. Hello?

Gots to tell you – I am kind of into it – and oddly I do not really feel like it is a stretch for me…

She started to bat around the switch word and though uncomfortable at first I do believe it is starting to grow on me…

Gave her a fun little beating the other night when I slept over… wow

I can see myself getting into this.

Later Gators.