DP Dreams

Lately I have been obsessing about the idea of having sex with multiple men. There is an element of non consent to my fantasies but really it has more to do with the idea of being stuffed. I love that feeling of being spread to the point of pain and even though there is a fair amount of simulation in our activities I have never had the experience of human double penetration.

I feel like I have become almost pathological in my desire for this experience. My porn viewing has turned almost exclusively to group sex and double penetration. I search for that moment in a video where the second cock goes in and I see the look on the girl’s face. It is only really good for me if there is a face shot with a little obvious pain. I want that.

I have a go to video. A girl getting fucked by two black guys. The look on her face is outstanding. I can literally go back and forth on that moment and have a continuous slew of orgasms just by watching her expression.

Anyhow – up until this point in our relationship there has never been another male sexually involved. The closest we have ever come was to have another couple having sex on the same bed as us. Plenty of women – but never a man.

The thing I need to be clear on is that we are not looking for anything ongoing. I would never wish to have another steady male involved with us and more importantly He would never allow it. Frankly as much as I desire being used by other men I need there to be an element of force (His dominance over me) to counterbalance my disgust.

We were getting closer.

There is a group in my area that meets once a month for gangbangs at a local hotel. He and I have spent a lot of time discussing the idea of participating and He decided to attend last month to see how it was. I pinged all night thinking about Him out and about but alas it was not to be. Though prepared to participate He found the situation not to His level at all and came home somewhat disgusted.

I can not tell you how disappointed I am. He had been torturing me with the idea. A hierarchy of sorts. He would go check it out. Then I would attend as a non participant with Him and watch Him fuck other girls. I would be forced to clean Him and take care of His needs while receiving no release of my own. Then He would bring me back and make me available for use. Hot – Hotter – Hottest.

He says He will not attend again. I was really excited by the idea but ironically He says that I would not have even wanted to stay if I had been there. But I hope that this is not the end of my possibilities at being on the receiving end of multiple attentions. I need it.