Easter

Happy Easter everyone.... I hope yours was great! My Easter was pretty quiet - we are still hanging on to most of our traditions in the house. My boys were raised with some very structured traditions centered around the holidays and it means so much to me that even though they are almost grown the family stuff is still important enough to them for them to want to maintain the traditions of their childhood.

His girl did not spend the holiday with us - which was sad and understandable all at the same time. She feels that it would be strange for my sons to have her with us for a holiday but frankly they are less concerned with her position in our lives and more concerned with her hang out potential anyway. She is genuinely likable and relates really well seemingly with any age group so she is just fun to be around.

She took her um out to a place not to far from me to spend the morning and had a great time. On the way back in she passed by my house so He and I could see the kid and give her a smooch. It was great to see her but I would have loved to spend the day with her.

Next year she says she is going to mix our traditions a little. I love the idea of combining our families to create new traditions and the idea that she can see herself becoming comfortable enough with us to begin spending the holidays with us. Right now they seem like a sticking point for her and i must say that it is a little bit of an issue for me to think that it is okay for us to be a family on any day OTHER than the holidays.

3 AM

So. It is three in the morning and my boys just left my room. They came home following me in tonight at around 12:30. I had been having dinner with a friend - they were gallivanting as only those of college age can do during their spring break. Sober and good and clean as always. I had just changed into my jammies and taken a giant triple shot cappuccino to my bed.

My plan for this evening was to stay up and prepare all my lesson plans for the coming unit so that I would not have to deal with any of it during the remainder of the break. He is sleeping at her house tonight and all accounts coming in by text indicate they are having a fantastic time.

However it was not to be. My boys came in excited and chatty and we spent the last few hours talking and laughing and watching random Disney clips. They chose the polish for my nails and we discussed things from the deep to the mundane.

Earlier tonight my friend asked me how I had addressed the inclusion of her in my family life with my boys and I must admit that it was considerably easier with the younger than the elder. Simply put I told the younger I love her and that his Father does too and that he should respect that. The elder I waited on and when he became concerned I merely told him that she was a very important part of our life. He asked if me and his Father had a problem and I told him that there was no need for concern. That is all he really wants to know.

Tonight it was nice and poignant and settling and sweet to hear them both discussing her and her um as if they were expected members of the family. No reservations.

I am consumed by the power of the relationships in my life.

One bomb. The girl who has made sport of breaking my son's heart since freshman year of high school is back in the picture. I hate to see him go through this again.