A little bit of a boring update

i don't really know where to go with this update today... truth be told there really isn't much to say. It seems that the deeper we get into this relationship with His girl the more our dynamic changes. Lately it seems that he has become increasingly interested in controlling my service but less and less interested in causing me pain.

Now of course i recognize that i am not supposed to complain - His desire is all i wish and all that...but truth be told i am really missing the pain. I love that He has become more concerned with my service though... oddly i am turned on by the frustration involved in having my requirement for permission to masturbate reinstated and being called in from the other room to plug in the computer when He is sitting next to the outlet. :)

The only thing that is causing a bit of frustration is the fact that when His girl and i get together we need to get permission at the time that we decide we would like to have some fun. i am not supposed to ask ahead of time so very often we get ourselves wound up and then i have to text and wait for a response... and with the um around sometimes we just don't have all that much time. Over the weekend i was at her house and during nap time we were fooling around some. I had gotten permission to suck her cunt and was really enjoying myself - but He had been unclear about whether she was allowed to reciprocate. By the time He stopped with the jokes and gave permission He had gotten ticked off and she had just lost the mood. It just sucks when it goes like that... but i had the fun of a toppy moment when she said she wasn't in the mood anymore and i told her that i really didn't care if she was in the mood _ she better get to work!

Ironically i am not required to ask permission for discipline - if i was i don't think it would ever work. she has been moderately responsive to discipline and in some ways has begun to respond to changes in tone and inflection which i really prefer in the long run. i do not enjoy discipline but i love beating her - and would much prefer beating her for our mutual amusement as opposed to beating her into compliance. But you know the deal...to a certain extent what ever it takes is what it is going to be.